Finding our True Voice Post-US Election

The US election has been the most unusual back-drop for my career change that I can imagine.

After attending the MIMA new member breakfast, Wednesday, my first MIMA blog was posted.

Meanwhile I am working on articles for our subsidiary website. I don’t know if I am a marketing intern or consultant, it is an unofficial position, however the results are real.

I have empathically witnessed and processed the protests post-election, the very real pain of my friends who had hoped for a Hillary win and the abject gloating of those who were in the Trump campaign. I decided to get more vocal about my thoughts on the subject. To present what I was seeing and feeling.

There are those who are proponents of “let live,” and others who are upset, and still others who find a certain personal power has been unleashed. My creative juices are on fire.

I don’t believe we can get through this time without a lot of creativity. What we will see in each other has just begun to surface and lot of it isn’t nice. I think it is dark days. Maybe the chaos will lead to better things…but not before we are spun around backward.

I attended the NAWMBA meeting at St Kate’s Thursday night in which MBA Director, Michelle Wieser presented findings from her PhD research on MBA salaries and the gender gap – which only gets worse the further we are in our careers (as women). Not surprising, maybe.

As women, we have gotten used to but are growing uneasy with the gender issues we continue to grapple with. They are real. They exist.

It has now been nine months since I graduated with my MBA and I am still working the same Executive Assistant position – no change in salary, no room for growth – and wondering when or IF I’ll break past the cap. And when I do break past the cap – will I be asked to start on the bottom, given a song and dance about my lack of experience and told “this is ALL we can give you?” That’s what I was told when I was negotiating for the job I have now.

What little deaths will I experience even after the shift?

While I have come to terms with my “volunteer” work and unofficial “marketing internship,” even now enjoying it – is it just because I have a good attitude that this is so? Would a man coming out of my MBA be told “you don’t have enough experience at an agency so go volunteer.”

Ok, so no one said that out loud. I have just read a lot of job descriptions and they’ve all underlined the requirements for agency experience – you get from doing what? Why are hiring managers so dogmatic about it? All I have experience so far are 'no' or silence from every agency/ corporation I applied to – so apparently it was applicable, despite rumors that guys get away with applying to jobs with less experience ALL the time.

If I were better networked or played softball with the Creative Director like men so often do, would these years of experience be overlooked? Is that why men get jobs they apply to without the experience?

I really don’t know the answer. Maybe no one does. I am proud of my first MIMA related byline and there will be more to come.

Eventually my articles will be published on the subsidiary website too Who knows, I could pick up some other gigs as the months unfold. No one can say I am not trying hard enough.

One of my fellow cohort members said “you get around.” Meaning all my posts and blogs on my process here and all the networking events or conferences. Yep. That is the kind of energy I have to put in to make this change and what it is going to take.

So what will it take for more awareness and consciousness to come to this post-election time? The traumas are wide and large. I don’t believe that pretending what is taking place is no big deal, is really the answer - like a doormat. We are each going to find our own way through. Although apathy seems ill-fated.

I see very strong Goddess-centered women coming into their own True voice, myself included.

What I know to be true, is that we are going to need different and better solutions than what have come before. We need to find our own true power. Our own voice.

I’m not going to pretend that some of the stuff I read about – attacks on the streets, racial slurs and attacks at schools and so forth doesn’t scare me. It is dark stuff. Darkness is making itself known where once it was hidden. Is that the awareness we all needed to make true CHANGE?

Perhaps.

One of my other classmates (who also attended the NAWMBA meeting) is working on a book cover and I am sure I’ll get better results than both my attempts at using Fivrr.com. If the Abbie & Cassandra book cover goes well, I might ask her to work on the Book1: Journey of Atlantis cover.

Meanwhile I guess I better get writing on both those short serials so there is actual content.

Oh. My MIMA committee chair asked me if I took pictures of the breakfast. Ugh…I still have that phone problem and my phone doesn’t take pictures. Or even work well. The screen is cracked again. Repairs are $135 and that’s before I go through the replacement costs to change it. Can I get a donation?

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A New Dawn: Victory for the Sacred Voice

I am at a loss for words. This is unusual for me.

A week ago, Trump supporters were posting the social media hashtag #soulcooking and saying that witchcraft was involved in the Clinton campaign.

Witchcraft described as “Satanism” and the art of the devil. A Christian ideology and a completely erroneous point of view which has been projected onto witches and pagans since the beginning of Judeo-Christian constructs.

Satanism is based on a bible. Witchcraft and Wicca, and paganism is based on an entirely different lexicon of beliefs. So Trump supporters believe I am the devil because I light candles and perform witchcraft and do energy and healing work that doesn’t come from Jesus? And they don’t even care to find out the Truth. In fact, they are hash-tagging my spirituality with hate speech.

What is interesting is that several days prior to the election I was in a room with a collection of amazing women brought together by my former social media professor, Nicole Harrison -- an activist and entrepreneur. We spoke to our feelings about how Trump supporters and Trump himself talked liberally about a bad economy. One woman is a stock trader by profession. She works with stocks and money all day long. She says, ‘this is a myth.”

That is all I saw. Myths made real with hate, vitriol and ugly memes.

Ultimately, a certain segment of our population elected this person and my heart opened to a new reality in which my beliefs and my own nature was not accepted by leadership.

I knew this may be a possible outcome – we were so polar. Divided. I hoped for an outcome I could live with but equally knew that plenty of folks felt a different way -- obstructed and occluded by fear, entities and thought-forms that cooked and stewed.

For them it was real and normal to project their feelings onto everything from witches to Muslims to Hilary herself. “Make America Great” and “Hilary is a Crook” just struck me has hateful and not very interesting.

My energy field was clear – I didn’t see anyone but an amazing woman speaking and fighting for what she believed in. A world in which we are united. Included.

However, to be truly united may require the destruction of what we know to be true – these government structures and ideals aren’t working. We need the shake-up and destruction that will take place to wake-up. Except the waking up will be hard and possibly not very pretty. Empaths and Intuitives had written about the election over a year ago and in those posts, I had sensed that we were headed to unknown territory.

I came awake from years of being a sleeper – pretending and sliding around. Healing. Going through my own darkness of the soul. I saw myself preparing for the day when I would need to be strong enough to speak up despite the hate and vitriol.

And here I am, writing in a way that I haven’t before. A new dawn and I had to get up for networking - despite it all.

I went to the MIMA new member breakfast. I knew I wanted to speak to the HR Manager when I got there. I had seen her name and photo on the website of the agency while we were signing up for the event. Something said I needed to speak to her. After talking to a few people, I was on my way out and I turn to my left. A vibrant woman introduced herself and guess what – it was she!

I explained my job search interests and she lit up and said that my interests in visual and written storytelling was exactly what they did. She ran to get her card and said that while they weren’t currently hiring she wanted me to do some informational interviewing amongst the staff and she’d set it up for me.

Holy cow! Source and spirit and all that candle magick was paying off. Who cares who won the election.

You know what if Hilary used witchcraft – more power to her. It works.

The new tools I am learning with Mastersoul University for manifesting are working. My crockpot and my weekly Live chats with Stacy Nelson give me new hope and ideas and I am rocking and rolling.

Back to the group of women Nicole had invited to the room. She called the event “Kick-Ass Women You Should Know.”

As soon as I walked in the door she asked me about my serial novel project which we’d worked on a social media marketing plan for in class. After telling the group what the project entailed, I already had a group of fans waiting for the first installment. When I left that night, I felt inspired to have the first book done by the time we met again in January. After all, I would hate to disappoint my fans.

Trump may have won an election but he didn’t win my respect or admiration. My family of origin is mostly Republican with strong feelings that the best thing happened. I guess. In a way. If you are prepared to see stuff play out that you only read about in World War II books.

So my response is to be even more myself. Even more vocal about my abilities as an intuitive and empath and expand my energy field into even more loving and connected behaviors. That guy in office can kiss my ass. If that doesn’t sound loving to you – realize the Goddess is multi-faceted. Hekate is a dark goddess. A potent and powerful one. I am not afraid anymore to use my stink-eye and my Sacred Words.

Maybe I am not so much “at a loss” as I had thought.

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Clarity in a Sea of Crazy - is it Possible?

Clarity. Is it possible right now?

All this activity makes me feel consumed with thoughts and ideas – mostly not belonging to me.

It is not easy for an empath to continuously take in input from seminars, conferences, networking, and even PRODUCING at a fast pace. Let alone the detractors and people who give advice I can’t take.

I have noticed since I began regular energy clearings that I am able to flow better, however I still need to manage my time to allow for rest, exercise, and non-doing.

Working full-time while doing volunteer activities that are now heating up, while simultaneously clearing, expanding my energy field and working on my mission -- which does involve work on the collective energy field is WAY more than full-time for an empath. This pace is not sustainable forever and I do hope that this level of activity pays-off, allowing me to work one job and on fun projects.

I am listening to Stacy Nelson’s Master Soul University Facebook LIVE. She is talking about tools we can use to maintain clarity in manifesting while so much is going on. Good timing for me. It is nice to be a part of a supportive community process while going through everything.

Meanwhile, I am realizing that all the energy upgrades have changed my ability to really give time to basic dramas or deal with other people’s entities and lower vibrational processes. I’m finding that all the energy I have time for is the process of pushing through my own stuff here. I can’t push someone else through the door. That is their job – if they choose it. They might get left behind.

I have to be that honest – with myself, with them, with the Universe. Feelings might get hurt.

I still feel largely ‘in between.’ I have clothes and shoes that are falling apart. PJs with holes in them. I pull a sweater out and the moths have gotten to it or it’s worn bare. I know that I need to invest in new clothes. I can’t show up to networking events looking like someone who can’t manage themselves let alone $million company communication strategies.

Family guilt – like my Dad saying he’ll need to get a job for the holidays and went to Goodwill for clothes are juxtaposed with expansive thought processes on manifestation – candles, rituals, energy-clearing, working with blocks to abundance etc. It is clear I am forging my own path separate from family templates and ideals and yet, I am still dependent on my family for financial support.

Can I really wait until January for new tires or will I end up giving my power away to frugality and be in a ditch somewhere, having skidded uncontrollably on the ice. This is real shit! I think about it ALL the time. I have no idea how to navigate this position I am finding myself in.

I am waiting for the note on my door in the weeks ahead in which I’ll have to consider my 2017 lease arrangement. Moving is expensive. Will moving even help me at this point? Or, am I better off paying my current rent to stay put. My place has beautiful brick walls, a great view, an in-unit washer-dryer, free espresso machine and peace of mind. It is the one peaceful place in a sea of crazy.

So really, Universe, you want me to, while writing blogs, going to work, and attending events to be packing my shit, searching for a new (probably not as nice) apartment, hoping I find something, getting the money from my parents for the deposit, going through a credit check process, I won’t even know if I pass and then actually moving by Feb 1 – in the middle of winter in Minnesota? Is that really “for the best?”

My mind is reeling. I don’t sleep. Sometimes I wake at like 5am thinking. I cringe looking at emails in my inbox thinking either it will be another “no thank you, we found someone better” email or my parents whining about my school loan.

Meanwhile, I’ll need to rush out the door for my next breakfast meeting, leading to a drive to work for a full eight hours, a few more hours of writing articles for my own site, my volunteer work, and so forth. Constantly strategizing.

I end up at the curling club for a game, and even there, I can’t truly relax. People ask me how I am doing, or congratulate me on my MBA. I have worked very hard on accepting that congratulations without immediately snapping into a self-judgement about how I am bleeding red and still don’t have the career I envisioned when I went into the process of obtaining the creds.

My hairdresser asked me if I was dating anyone. That’s the last thing I am thinking about. Unless the person shows up with a moving van and several friends and makes my meals every night, I really don’t think they’d be much help. It is sad.

I realize my concept of relationships are that they are draining and unhelpful. I don’t have the capacity to consider for long how they could be supportive and enjoyable because I feel like I’d have to provide energy to the person I simply don’t have. I am barely functioning as is…

I’ll leave those thoughts there for now. I have nothing better to add.

If you want to help support my career transition - I am still running my YouCaring.com campaign. While I did have some donations in the previous round, I have additional networking/conference type events, up keep on this website and other processes to go. You can also reach me personally for direct donations and I take PayPal. https://www.youcaring.com/ginasmovinonupcampaign

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