Day 10.5: Changing Mind and the Limitless Quantum Field

I got home from the MIMA event with Jen Faucon, exhausted and ready for bed. Fantastic presentation by an admirable woman who has travelled and worked all over the world.

Other women who were at the pinnacle of their careers were present at the table. We drank cocktails, discussed our adventures in the world of men and #MeTo. How were we both a contributor and navigating successfully in a man’s world?

Dinner

Deep questions. A meal at Meritage, where I eternally feel transported to the streets of Paris, ensued and our dinner conversations awoke in me further, these deep-seated passions that I’d been nurturing. In my writing, in my healing work, and in my life in general.

Aimee mentioned she had not seen that side of me – the one that is willing to say or write anything and enjoy the results. My only thought is that the ability to feel safe doing so has been a process of internal and external transformation. When mired in trauma, it is hard not to feel like being openly brazen will end up with anything other than a slap on the wrist, or worse yet compromise one’s finances or some other aspect of life.

Getting to the point in one’s healing journey in which you can be secure in your own skin, and therefore express the pure nature of the soul, requires that the limiting and sabotaging beliefs of the subconscious are not so heavily at play. Otherwise the neural pathways of the brain seek to re-create the trauma and keep your nascent exploration of higher purpose at bay.

The San Francisco Connection

At any rate, that same morning, Aimee had connected me with a tech guy in San Francisco, who needed a content marketer for his new project, a website on the latest advances in healing including but not limited to the Keto diet. He himself had used the Keto diet to successfully recover from Type 2 Diabetes.

What’s interesting to me, is the night before I’d spoken with a friend of mine about the desire to write more about health and well-being. I also want to help others with Beachbody programs and products – since I’d been a coach for while but not really done anything with the business.

Maybe because I didn’t identify with the vast majority of Mommy Blogger types that made their income that way. Still, at this stage I felt more open and aligned with the concept of sharing the system. In addition, I feel strongly about the mind-body connection – that our bodies are and will always be connected to our abundance issues.

How many sick people are also poor – either in Spirit or in financial wealth? The website guy sent me a video introduction to Joe Dispenza. I swear I’d seen his name before but had not been ready to hear the message, or something. The video is an hour long and well worth seeing.

Not only that but his intro courses seemed to be on sale for the summer. The quantum field and its implications to my situation astounded me. I knew I needed to take this course and follow the energy that the Universe was giving to me.

Why am I sitting here, looping through problems and restrictions when I can tap into the quantum field and change my mind and my life? I don’t know the reason totally, other than I was clearly attached to these problems – or had been. Suffering away and addicted to the adrenalin, all while aging in my body. This had to shift. And NOW.

A common affliction

Furthermore, I asked myself why on earth so many of us were stuck that way. Either dying slowly or dying quickly. Attached to the brief moment of attention we receive when people are raising money to fund our medical accounts or lamenting how no one wants to save us. Facebook and social posts are replete with these.

The health care system is broken and the repair may not come with better funded insurance. It has to come from our desire to do things differently, disrupting the status quo of our existence.

We are unwilling, generally to actually solve the problem. While the insights and information dangle out there on the web, courses are available, and scholarships/ donations exist to change our reality.

We sit mired in our limitations and self-concepts. Legions of us commit suicide on one level or another and never really function at our potential. It is a fascinating topic of self-limitation, and one I wish to explore more with others.

At this stage, though I am ready to get the hell out of dodge and deal with my own predicament. I see the stage is finally setting up to do just that. Let’s see where this path takes me. What will it take for all of us to be more connected to the divine intelligence?

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Day 8: New vistas, old habits, journey of the soul and other Truths as summer winds down

I took a shift unexpectedly at the restaurant downtown today. Biked home and realized half-way that it was Tuesday night work crew at the Saint Paul Curling Club.

Stopped in to see what the summer projects were all about. Loni mentioned that while the roster wasn’t large, they’d managed to wait until the last minute, once again to complete things.

The ice set-up projects will start next week!

Hard to imagine that in just a month, fall activities will begin and temps will start to drop. The State Fair – our big Minnesota get together will be completed and Halloween on its way.

I’ve never known any place to have summer last less than three months. Why did I have a soul contract for this place again? If you’d asked me in 2001 if I’d ever leave California and venture to the mid-west, and a city, I’d have cringed. I always saw myself settling in the country like up in Napa or Petaluma with a large tract of land, maybe working for a vineyard.

The first time I got confronted with the idea of living in a city was when I took my first CTI coaching courses back in 2005. We did a guided “future self” meditation where we went to visit ourselves 20 years in the future. My future self was wearing a suit and hanging out in an office space in a city I didn’t recognize. The only ones I thought remotely close in size and scope were San Francisco or Los Angeles and I hated those places. I ran out of the room crying.

When much later, around 2008/2009 I was introduced to Minneapolis-St Paul I freaked out because it looked just like the “future self” meditation, and I felt like I’d been there before. It took several more coaching classes and sessions to consider that maybe my soul had been speaking for a long time. So, while it may have seemed like a sudden, or even insane decision by some who didn’t know the whole story – I’d been working with the idea for quite some time.

I tried to avoid it for about another year. Increasingly though I had this strange internal nudging going on. The temp jobs I took were more and more temporary – often working for companies that were about to go under or were in merger-acquisition. In the end, I stopped getting jobs altogether. The only thing that kept rearing its “ugly” head was this idea of re-location.

Our souls know exactly what we should be doing. Maybe, I knew better than to avoid the call too long. No need to get hit over the head with a two-by-four to wake up to my future.

Back at the curling club, we talked summer projects, curling, boats, an open bartender spot. We ate pizza and drank beer (and no I didn't do any work - I was told to come back next week) I was reminded just how fast the summer had gone. Perhaps the constant stream of interviews, job hunting and MIMA work kept me busy. Here I thought I’d have a job and move from my sub-let to my own apartment or something. No such luck.

Dreams don’t always land the way you think they will. We can have all the pre-conceived notions we want of life, or even the people in our lives and many times they’ll simply not add up. I had no idea what I was getting into when I first moved to the Twin Cities in March of 2010 with two suitcases and a dream.

The path and the journey has both been more amazing than I could have imagined and more daunting. I didn’t know when I moved that starting over would mean literally from scratch. Or that I would meet so many amazing folks from all walks of life, who’ve turned into friends. Or that I’d be confronted with the most difficult people and situations I’d ever experience, having to dig deep to find my True North, gain personal efficacy and know the potency of my determination and strength.

More changes are coming. The summer is winding down. Decisions need to be made. New choices, new vistas and grappling with our winter weather, once again. What magic will the holidays hold for 2018? A year of deep spiritual awakening.

What new horizons will show themselves and what will continue to stay the same, not quite going as planned or changing direction altogether. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.

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Competitive Mindset and the Art of Winning - Attitude Adjustment

Last weekend, I had the opportunity to join a team of curlers comprised of high performance team members. These young curlers normally compete at the national level with their competitive teams.

What an exciting event in which our team ended up winning the First Event Championship of the Saint Paul Curling Club’s Mixed Wind-Up. We played one game on Friday night and three, six-end games and one eight-end game on Saturday. Our last three were back to back!

Competitive mindset

I found myself witnessing what it takes to be in the winning mindset. In my time spent on curling teams of all shapes and sizes during the last eight seasons, my exposure to competitive play was limited to my season as an official. Even then, I did not actually join the teams on the ice or really have a sense for the dynamics of play.

My curling friends on this competitive team were consistently supportive of each other. There weren’t any aggressive glances because someone “messed up.” They may have collectively acknowledged adjustments they wished to make next time, but they kept up-beat. Furthermore, there was constant communication both at the time the shot was being called and while the rock was in play and being swept.

I also noticed that even though I was not at the competitive level generally, I wanted to and often did, play a high caliber game. We collectively pulled each other up. The teammates kept each other’s spirits high even when our shots didn’t make the mark and we joked around with each other. If we were down in one end, the strategy was simply adjusted to win, rather than sink down into the bad shots we had just played. Ultimately, my teammates did not consider losing a possibility.

Applying the techniques to other areas of life

Going into the week, I realized I could apply these techniques to other areas of my life. I realize that I learned the bad habit of a type of pessimism about the outcome of things. This is not the mindset my young teammates went into competition with at all. Instead, they believed almost like it was inevitable, they would win.

I recently decided to switch from hosting to serving at the restaurant where I have worked since October. I do not find this type of work easy or a slam dunk. I am more of a leader than a servant archetype. Nevertheless, I saw many advantages in pushing myself out of my comfort zone.

While I work on my marketing career and do what it takes to develop my applicable skillset, there is something to be said for the challenge of serving others, joyfully and providing an exceptional experience. Plus, the money is better. Part of my financial health plan for 2018 includes paying down some debts, saving money (finally) and putting myself into the realm of possibly moving back into my own apartment sometime this fall.

What it might look like to apply these techniques

First off, it may not go smoothly my first few times serving. Maybe someone will get angry, my timing will be inconsistent, or I’ll have to ask questions I forgot to ask the first time. Rather than get down, I will brush it off, use it to adjust my serving strategy and keep improving.

In my marketing work, I am applying to and interviewing for jobs. I have had a plethora of different feedback so far. When job hunting, you are in a constant adjustment – one thing you forgot to mention in one interview, is front and center on your mind the next one. Additionally, you can’t really let other people’s limited thinking or points of view get you down.

Yes, that hiring manager may not see past his or her nose and feel out my potential. But I won’t take it personally and will keep going. At some point, the right fit for myself and the company I apply to will fall into place. One of my bartender friends said, “it is statistically impossible to be turned down every time.” OK then!

Eight years ago, I didn’t even know how to throw a curling rock without falling over. This last weekend, I won a First Event Championship with elite curlers. My shots were just as important in the lead position as the rest of the team’s.

If I had given-up on my first few attempts at curling, I would never have experienced the fun, joy and thrill of this competition. I would not have met some wonderful new friends. I would not be a first event winner.

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